Z100 x OGCJ

Why "you are not alone."

I was inspired by sharing my own struggles with mental illness (which I describe below). It's currently mental illness awareness week, October 4 - October 9 which is leading up to World Mental Health Day on Sunday, October 10.

For a long time, I felt alone. I felt as though nobody could relate to my pain or struggles. This kept me isolated. While I was isolating, thoughts of doubt, shame, sadness, and pain grew louder and more frequent. To numb myself I would consume alcohol, marijuana, and cigarettes. I wanted to die, but I didn't want to kill myself. At this point, I wasn't a Christian, but I would pray to God to save me, to help me, for something to happen, anything.

Fast forward some time later, things started to finally change after a miraculous chain of events. I got sober, started a relationship with Jesus, and met people that I could share things with and that I could hear and relate to. I love the quote "joy shared is multiplied; a sorrow shared is divided." I realized that I needed people. There is power in unity. I also came to the realization that I deserved to live a life full of good things regardless of what I have been through. You deserve that too. It's not too late and you are not alone.

Looking back I realize that the enemy wanted me isolated. Even to this day, he wants me alone, sad, insecure, and hopeless. Because there is so much freedom, hope, love, and life in the opposite. Thankfully I have learned that there is another way to live. One where my relationships with others and my higher power take priority. I am still in recovery and healing, but thanks be to God I am nowhere near that lonely room where isolation and darkness consumed my life.

My suggestion to you is to start small. Try new and different things. Find a local church, join a meetup, look for fun events near you, speak to a therapist or someone you can trust. If you are suicidal or may have a problem with drugs and alcohol there are resources to help you. There is no shame in getting help. Please don't forget that you are not alone. Someone somewhere has dealt with or is currently dealing with what you have been or are going through and they need you. Lastly, no matter how dark it gets, there is always light, brighter days are ahead!

The Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386 https://www.thetrevorproject.org

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 1-800-950-NAMI (6264) https://www.nami.org

Suicide Prevention Hotline: 1-800-273-8255


Z100 x OGCJ and how this all happened?

Simply put, a game show and a couple of chances! But for all of the details...

One day while listening to Z100 I heard about a contest that took place via zoom and how the winner could win $10,000! As a student and business owner, this intrigued me. I sent in an application video and hoped for the best. I received a follow-up call, then another, and another.

Long story short, I was one the of 10 contestants on Z100's 10K Cash Cam Contest! If you don't know what that entails, we had to sit at our computers on zoom for about 10-12 hours a day talking and competing with one another. I was the underdog as I barely made it through each round. Then it was down to the top 3, then top 2 and I eventually lost to the amazing Ashley!

I was extremely proud of myself for trying. What I have yet to mention is that one of the main reasons that I joined the contest (besides the cash prize, of course) was to prove to myself that I could do it. That I could try something new and to see if I could believe in myself. Belief in myself is something that hasn't always been consistent. I still have some work to do, but it's important for me to acknowledge, accept and appreciate how far I have come. Sometimes you have to step out in faith, try your best and see what happens and that's just what I did.

I didn't go home empty-handed, I won some cash and since the wonderful people behind the scenes miraculously believed in my business and I, they awarded me with an advertising campaign through Z100! Whoaaa I was shocked!

It hasn't been an easy journey, but cut to October 4th, 2021 we are launching a limited edition "you are not alone." collaboration to raise awareness for mental illness. Together we've connected with The Trevor Project to donate 10% of all the proceeds to.

It's hard having a business especially when your confidence fluctuates. However, I draw my strength from The Lord and I am comforted knowing that all I can do is try my best and that must be good enough.

Lastly, thank you Z100 and iheartRadio for believing in me and providing this incredible opportunity to a small business owner who happens to have BIG dreams. 

With love,

Deana Delrose


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